In.Sleep

I knew I loved you when

We slept next to each other in my

ocean of a bed

 

I heard the clicking of your jaw

As you ground your teeth

in sleep

 

When you rolled over to face me

You muttered something

I couldn’t quite understand

I knew you were quite gone

deep in it

 

And when our foreheads

touched

gently

 

Your hand came up to caress

my face

Repeatedly, like it had known

The terrain of my features

From ages before

I thought I was dreaming

Of someone who almost

didn’t exist

 

After twenty-seven years of people

Breaking my ridiculous

little

heart

 

I couldn’t believe those fingers

Tracing the outline of my

face

 

And I wondered how something

so sweet

Could also seem somehow

so sad

 

Because one of the rules of my life

Is that all good people leave

They don’t come back

When I woke up the next morning

You were still there, sleeping

And I thought maybe

Just maybe

There’d be hope for a cursed fucker

like me.